dear roody 24/30

dear roo-

i made the un/fortunate mistake of typing your name into facebook search in order to find the picture of your cup overlooking hong kong. people’s beautiful tributes to you flooded the screen. i read one, then the next, and then i come across all the beautiful things you write about love, resurrections, and hope. i come across so many beautiful posts about all your hopes and excitements for goodworks. i come across all the millions of reasons why letting you go is so hard. you had a beauty that is indescribable. you had a heart and soul unlike anyone i know.

so, roody. i don’t know what else to share today. everything i had to say no longer feels worthy. you were a light, a beam of hope, and the world feels so much darker and harsh without you, your obsession with coffee, dirty humor, and stupid grin. god, remember those years you wouldn’t show your teeth when you smiled…hahaha. those were the BEST.

“who lives sees. who travels sees more.”

you saw so much. you were inspired by all you saw. you saw hope in all places. you were hope in all places.

this is why it hurts so much to lose you. you gave me, you gave our family, our friends, communities, the world…you gave us all so much. you were light and a symbol of hope and resurrection to us. i believe you wanted us to be the same.

i miss you, bro. there isn’t a day that goes by i wish i had you to bull shit with. i wish i had you to dream with. i wish i had you to work alongside with.

i am so proud of you, the life you led, the grace you were.

i am so happy we loved each other so much.

i am so inspired by you. this pain sucks, this grief is brutal, but you’ve shown me the resurrection is out there.

i love you. forever and always.

i miss you.